If you don't know, now ya know...
And, boy, I’m glad to have that off my chest! I’m referring to a little documentary I’ll be on airing next Thursday, April 20th, on Lifetime TV network (yikes!). Yes, I am on this season of Married at First Sight. ::gasp:: I know. It’s crazy. It’s nuts. I’ve somehow managed to keep it quiet for a bit now and I still think it’s crazy! What can I say.. I told you I like adventures. Not to mention, I'm a hopeless romantic (hidden in tough-girl skin) and believer in the Universe working things out and letting them fall into place. So, when this came my way, I figured it was my path for a reason and I rolled with it. Lawdy, it’s been one wild ride.
And the ride’s not over. Coming up is (arguably) the scariest part of the adventure. The TV part.
Listen, I’m well aware I signed up for a televised documentary and have known it was coming for a while now. Does that make it any less unknown or terrifying? Nope. Not even a little bit. The build-up has probably made it worse, if anything!
I’d like to think of myself as an “I don’t care what others think about me” kind of person, but that’s easier said than done. I expect there will come a lot of judgement and harsh words because that’s just the nature of the beast for anyone on a “reality-esque” show. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't guilty of judging people on TV, too. You better believe my outlook on that has changed substantially since participating in this (and with the help of yoga and practicing non-judgment). The assumptions and comments on social media have already begun and the show hasn’t even aired!
My yogi-skills are going to have to kick into high gear here over the next few months. This will give me a lot of practice in patience, trust, letting go and staying present. But, I mean... I get it, man. People like to talk. And I have a pretty solid sense of humor so I can (and do) laugh at a lot of it.
Even still, as with all things in life, I know there will be balance. I’ve already met some AMAZING people on this journey so far and had some AMAZING experiences through it. Thus far, it has opened my mind and my heart and helped me continue to grow and explore more. And for any negativity, I hope to be met with supporters and kind hearted folks, as well. I’ve already seen the well-wishers and supporters and believers in finding love out there in the social media world, too. High fives to y’all! <3
After all, the documentary part can only show a portion of our journey. There's only so much air time and it's not going to be possible to show everything, so I hope those watching will keep that in mind before judging too quickly or too harshly.
Aside from any anxiety I’m working through regarding the TV part, I don’t want it to sound like it’s a total drag! There’s a ton of fun things I’m super stoked to see on the show! There’s going to be highs and lows, true to any relationship and true to life. Heck, I may even dig the TV part of this. It may be fun… who knows?? It’s just all unknown territory which is scary and exciting. And that sounds like the perfect combination for an adventure.
So, I’m going to learn to ride the wave and try and have as much fun as I possibly can in an odd situation over the next few months. Yoga is teaching me to learn how to be comfortable with the uncomfortable and I’d say this situation falls under that category! I hope you’ll come along with me for the ride and wish me (and all the participants) luck! Love n’ light, y’all!
MS, RD, LDN